The scheduling of this holiday season has been on my mind a lot lately. You see, last year, I had a whirlwind Christmas with many places to visit. It's like a festival more than a holiday really. Lots of places to go and people to see. But with all the changes that have happened in my family in the past couple of months and with my friends' families throughout the year, this Christmas is gonna be a lot different. Not nearly as many places to go. Not as many people to see. And while I should be relieved because I'm usually worn out by the end of it, I can't help but to be a little sad.
I don't adapt well to change. And recently nothing but different has been thrown at me. I'm trying my hardest to go with the flow, and I think I'm doing a pretty good job if I do say so myself. But it's just hard. To think about the holidays--a time that should be nothing but happy--and feel sad. This is something that I've got to come to terms with. There's nothing that will make it magically be back to "normal"-This is the new normal.
Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas time and am looking forward to having some quality time with those that I will spend it with this year. It's just hard.
I went through this last Christmas... Honestly, I spent 1/2 the season in tears because it was just DIFFERENT... Not bad, but... DIFFERENT. As you get older you'll find that each year is different. It's embracing it that takes time... You'll be fine. GREAT, even.
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